“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.”—Douglas Coupland (via thresca) (via suzywire)
“It is far more impressive when others discover your good qualities without your help.”—
I wish more people understood this. You really shouldn’t have to convince ANYONE that you are a “good” person, or that you are in such an “evolved” state …don’t be so pompous. Give people a little more credit, they can see through you more than you know.
“I look at people as ideas. I don’t look at them as people. I’m talking about general observation. Whoever I see, I look at them as an idea — what this person represents. That’s the way I see life”—Bob Dylan (via dailydoseofdylan) (via hellovagina)
“I am now the most miserable man living. If what I feel were equally distributed to the whole human family, there would not be one cheerful face on the earth. Whether I shall ever be better I can not tell; I awfully forebode I shall not. To remain as I am is impossible; I must die or be better, it appears to me.”—Abraham Lincoln
“The time has come, my pretty maiden, to stop running away from yourself, trying to keep on a merrygoround whirlwind of activity that goes so fast you haven’t time to think too much or too long. Today you made a fatal decision - … And you vacillated like a nervous seesaw - gulped, chose blindly - and immediately wanted to reverse a decision which is speeding into finality now already on the wings of mails, minds, and secretarial files. You are an inconsistent and very frightened hypocrite: you wanted time to think, to find out about yourself, … and now you have it: practically 3 months of godawful time, you are paralyzed, shocked, thrown into a nausea, a stasis. You are plunged so deep in your own very private little whirlpool of negativism that you can’t do more than force yourself into a rote where the simplest actions become forbidding and enormous.”—The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via omfgitstabitha) (via infinitebutterflies) (via oneshouldreadeverything) (via fuckyeahsylviaplath)
“Yes, I was infatuated with you;
I am still
No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me
I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy.
Before I give my body,
I must give my thoughts,
My mind, my dreams,
& you weren’t having any of those.”—Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals (via allthatglittersispink) (via fridha) (via fuckyeahsylviaplath)
Besides my lack of ambition, I have trouble maintaining relationships. Never dated. Friends come in and out of my life, and I either get bored with them or I get so annoyed that they have ambitions and passions that I feel uncomfortable sticking it out. I have no loyalty to anyone and even my family says that I am duplicitous and hard to read. I spend most of my days sleeping or surfing the Net, away from people, tuned out from the world. Whenever I try to tune back in, I feel self-conscious due to all that I’ve missed out on. This again makes it hard to connect with others — what the hell can I talk about? I know I’m smart, but I’m lazy, and am nowhere near to approaching my potential. The separation between my ability and my actions is driving me crazy and has brought on suicidal thoughts.
the bolded part, yes. sometimes i feel really weird about all of it because i’m thinking, thank god i am actually spending the next 3-4 years of my life finally doing something i love, want to be good at, and want to make a career out of, but still. i procrastinate, i have days where i don’t want to wake up and go to class, i get intimidated an incredible amount about some of the things that we are excected to do. i’m not aiming for perfect, i know it’s not worth trying to get to some ridiculously high standard only to get disappointed, but i still want to do the best i can and feel like i’ve learned lots and made mistakes that i won’t repeat in future. it’s just that i want to reach my ‘potential’, whatever that is. i don’t just want to be the girl who is good at bullshitting philosophy papers and using the harvard referencing system, because i know/hope i can do so much more than that. i don’t know. seeing this right now just made me think about where i’m at right now and where i want to be. still getting there, i think.
“How we need that security! How we need another soul to cling to, another body to keep us warm. To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence: I need this, I need someone to pour myself into.”—Sylvia Plath (via atoms) (via unicornology)